To Hashem is the earth and its fullness,
Chabad shluchim are the main reason I know anything about my religion. And I love the Tanya and all of Chabad Chassidus very much.
However, at this point in my life, I feel like "moach sh'alet al'ha'lev" is just not for me (the brain is to rule over the heart - the primary modicum of service for Chabad Chassidim).
I like getting emotional in my dovening and Torah learning.
And Breslov (Likuta Moran and sefer HaMiddos) lends itself to this more easily.
In effect, not much changed. I can't see my Rebbe and Chabad can't see their Rebbe.
Truth be told, my favorite rebbe of all time (expect Moshe Rabanu A''H of course!) is Reb Levi Yitzchak of Berditchev.
But I don't think he has any chassidim around today and part of the draw of chassidim for me is the sense of community.
I, too, pray that my ex wife will reconsider. Everything is in G-d's hands, as they say.
Have a great Shabbos!