Meir, as hard and traumatic as it is, I think this will work out for the best. Sometimes all of us need a radical wake up call to get our lives back on track when we are at our lowest. You are a very valuable member of our movement and I have no doubt that you'll contribute more than ever after you get back on solid ground. I am praying hard for you and so is my good Christian Zionist friend. G-d bless you.