When you are depressed I would recommend that you gravitate towards something more psychologically uplifting in Torah, and read this one when you start believing you're in control of anything. If you look for the number seven, the color red, depressing things, or literally anything, eventually you will see in everywhere, and right away you may begin to see it places where it does not exist, especially since you lack a parasympathetic state and proper cognitive function under the effects of depression. You risk interpreting things in an incorrect or incomplete way to make them fit the depressing things you are searching for.
The book Tanya by the Alter Rebbe says that joy is a foundational mitzvah (commandment, connection, good deed) because without joy you won't have the desire to do the mitzvot that you are given the opportunity to fulfill. Torah is clear that the spirit of Hashem does not rest on depressed people, you are completely pulling back your heart from your connection to the Creator that makes you feel good all the time to feel it. First go read Torah to make you happy, what speaks of your worth and the love for you in everything that happens, etc. When you are in a state of inflated ego it is useful to study why you come from a drop of stinky liquid and when you die your body will be eaten by the worms, in a state of pathetic ego it will only be used for you to rebelliously justify that you feel important and all the things that lessen your importance you're just gonna sing as a rebellion, because surely everyone will see that you're so great and they're not bowing to your for it will only prove how much better you are since they can't even understand your stellar greatness.
Depressed people and people that complain can handle 3x more because they still have energy to do it. Once a man wrote to the Lubavitch Rebbe and said my life is hell, I never have enough money for my kids, I have to work and there are problems all over, I am very depressed. The Rebbe wrote back that most of the world would wish for his joys and happily accept the problems to have a loving family of their own, and that he is blocking the flow of good things into his life because he gets good things and is depressed about the problems instead of happy about the gifts, so if Hashem gives him more it will serve the opposite purpose until he is grateful. From experience, telling depressed people to be grateful feels at first to them like being whipped while an ogre screams, "submit", but it's just fake ego struggling to survive, and if you do it in its face you get to kill a little bit more of the fake you that robs the good of the lives of most people in the world in history.