Shalom Chaim,
I'm sorry to trouble you with such a complicated question, but I seek your advice; I really need it right now. I am having what you might call a crisis of faith. I have been thinking a great deal, about history, politics and religion, and have ultimately begun to doubt if I was born into the right religion (Judaism.) Basically, I feel like I do not belong in this religion; I simply do not feel any personal connection to the Jewish religion OR the Jewish people as a culture. When I search my thoughts, I feel as if the Jewish people are somehow doomed; I feel like they are pathologically self-destructive, they NEVER learn from history, and even with the best military in the Middle East, the Israelis continue to tie their own hands and let the Arabs chip away at their land, passively accepting their fate just like the Jews who were herded into gas chambers. It is driving me insane; I WANT to love being Jewish, but I can't reconcile my own values with a people that for all the world seems to voluntarily want to commit suicide. Right now, what I need is spiritual guidance, and I seek it here from you. Please give me your best advice and try to guide me on the right path.