I was talking to someone here and came up with an interesting psychological explanation for my grandstanding when I first arrived to the forum that I knew better than everyone. When you untie a ball of knots, before you can straighten it out to a flat little string, it will grow to as much as five times its size as you loosen bit by bit all the knots. Egotistical grandstanding is a phase in the process of psychological deprogramming, and should be expected and a system built in place for it to express itself in a constructive way, rather than forcing the learner to go off on his own like he owns the world; it's potentially just a needed function in the process of seeing that what you thought was solid knowledge is empty space and twists. The teshuva that comes after the egotistical expressions is the critical part, if you could call any one part in a process more critical than another.