Well, whatever it was or could be....
There is an expression in Farsi we use when we can't explain or if it's fate and literally means "fate": Ghesmat.
Whatever is ghesmat or meant to be is meant to be...You can't argue with Gd and you can't argue with fate...you can try all that you want and it doesn't work out the way you wanted it to..it's because there are bigger plans ahead.
We can plan and plan and plan, but Gd is sitting up there and laughing at us planning our futures.
So for you, Chaim, whatever it is it is..whatever will be will be. If it is her, who knows, it might be for the best that all these years went by..and if it is meant to be..it's meant to be...