I don't believe in Judaism, yet, I really really really (..) want to do mitzvot and do things that Judaism says to do, what does it mean ? I also really enjoy reading rabbies writings, I read Emunoth ve-Deoth by Rasag (Rabbi Saadia Gaon) and in Perek Beit (second episode, or part) - introduction, there was a part name "Types of people in believing", one type that I think will match for me is a "Criminal" - one who pretending to be religiouse (but I am not..) but don't fully believe in Judaism/G-d etc'.
What do you think ?