i have never denied anything nor have i accepted and i have never spoken to a rabbi since i was a child as the opertunity never came about i dont mean to be offensive in any way shape or form you shouldent even be offended by questions since i dident know it was offensive you should just explain not get offended i will continue this discussion tomorow good night people or good day depending on where you are lol
I am not offended by anything you say. Words cannot offend me. I am offended by the fact that you have tried to create your own religion, which is all too common among modern Jews.
Religion is not a philosophy that allows you to do what you want. G-d loves you, and one cannot love without caring about the actions of those they love. For example, if you have a mother who allows you to do whatever you want, and does not care what happens to you, there is clearly no love there. On the other hand, when a parent truly loves you, they are upset when you break their rules, as they believe that these rules make you a better person. Just the same, G-d would not love you and simultaneously not care about the decisions you make.
There is a Chabad house in Singapore. I suggest you reach out to them.