I am asking for your honest opinion....
background.... I am in my 40's, married to a wonderful woman that I love like a sister and not a wife, no children, a Christian, male..... my income is about top 3 - 5%, I have pretty much anything I could ever want (clarification... note - anything I could ever want, I am by no means saying anything that anyone else could ever want, I am not extremely wealthy - however I do have much more than I need).
The problem is almost NOTHING gives me happiness other than my dogs and the raccoons that hang around my house that I feed nightly. I am not necessarily UN happy, just here, that is all. I cannot think of any possession that I could buy that would get me excited and enthused. I suffer from a couple of psychiatric conditions supposedly but personally I don't have a problem with them, it is others that complain and seem to suffer (one being Tourette's syndrome).
I feel I am being called to do medical missions (I am an oral surgeon), I do get great joy from doing things for others. I wonder if I am conjuring up this idea as an attempt to make myself happy? How do I know? Should I give it a try and see what happens? I am not the best example of what a Christian should be, I worry if I would be tarnishing the image of virtuous people who are serving others. Interestingly, people think my life and marriage is all good... I am very good at what I do and well respected by my peers. I can maintain this image under even the worst of circumstances, I think I am able to do this because of the self discipline I have had to build in order to keep from acting stupid from the Tourette's.
Should I try to straighten out my personal life first? I feel I may be running away from my problems by re-focusing and doing something respectable.
Main question / thought.... Do any of you think that maybe I am not happy because I am not doing what I should be doing.... medical mission work, rather than trying to use it to fix my unhappiness?