Muman meant no harm and said what he said out of love to a fellow Jew. Gd willing next year muck will try to fast. Right muck?
Maybe. Honestly, probably not. I don't know.
Thanks to all for the concern you've displayed, I appreciate you guys wanting me to be a better Jew. Also, a special thanks to Lisa for her kind words (and a belated happy birthday wish).
A little bit about me; I'm no longer a spring chicken. I'm the same age as Chaim. Grew up in Brooklyn and attended Hebrew school after going to public school during the day. My parents (both deceased) were secular but they instilled a pride of being a Jew in me. Or maybe it's just something that's innate. Perhaps, it's a combination. Either way, I've always felt Jewish, if you know what I mean. I used to love going to my mom's parent's home for seders. To this day I can vividly remember my grandfather's shaking hand always spilling Manishevitz concord grape wine all over my grandmother's immaculately white table cloth as he recited the plagues. I can't imagine
not having a Jewish upbringing. It's defined me as a person and shaped my life. I love Jewish culture. The food, the humor, the doting Jewish mother, even the crazy guilt and tears for the horrors our people have endured.
As a youngster I attended an orthodox synagogue on the high holidays. Sometimes on Shabbat I'd make an appearance if it was necessary to form a minyan. Went through the whole Bar Mitzvah thing. Always fasted on Yom Kippur. But I never kept kosher or observed Shabbat.
Over the years I've drifted further away from even these nominal efforts to be a good Torah Jew.
These days, I'm a semi-professional gambler residing in Reno, Nevada. It's not exactly a life that's conducive to me changing my ways and becoming a better Jew, even if I wanted to.
I don't know that in my heart of hearts I want to change. If I was sure that G-d existed I'd almost certainly feel differently. But I'm not sure. I'd like to believe, but I lack the absolute faith others on this forum have. I lean towards there being a supreme being or some intelligence behind the our existence, but I'm just not sure. I guess that makes me an agnostic.
I know it seems weird to the observant members of this forum that a secular agnostic Jew could be a proud Jew and extremely pro-Israel. Admittedly, it's somewhat anomalous, but there's probably other Jews out there like me, maybe even some on this forum.
Anyways, that's a little bit about who I am and I hope this helps you understand where I'm coming from. I didn't mean to cause a ruckus or upset anyone by professing that I wasn't going to fast, and again, I thank you all for your concern.