I have grown to have more belief that there are Torah codes in the Chumash. I was skeptical for a while but it only stands to reason, as you point out, that the arrangement of the words, the particular spellings, the large letters, and other scribal masoretic text all have meaning. There is the belief that there is not a single extra word or letter in the Torah, that each letter represents a Jewish Neshama. And the fact that events are not in chronological order is a clue. Those who want to denigrate the Torah will say that this is evidence of an edited manuscript by various authors in history. But the sages have an explanation for this, and it makes more sense than believing it is not from Hashem.
Torah codes are unreliable because they cannot be used to tell the future. Only after events happen can we look for them in the codes. I don't think that Torah codes should be used to prove Hashem is the Ribbono Shel Olam as I stated in my first posting.
My belief is that in order to come closer to Hashem, for a Jew who has turned away to return, is that a person must go through personal suffering. That is what happened in my particular case. I was brought up with a minimal Jewish education, Bar Mitzvahed in Conservative synagogue, and then dropped all Jewish activity for over 20 years. Only seven years ago, after several personal tragedies, did I start to observe Jewish mitzvot after finding a good Orthodox minyan in my town. In my case it was the tragedies which made me realize that as smart as I was, as witty as I was, and as good as I was, I was not in control of my life.
It is that feeling that you must let go in order to move forward. That no matter what happened to me it was all because of Hashem, good and bad, and only he could protect me from any danger. And just like Hashem promises us in the Torah, once you open a small opening in your heart for Hashem he will widen it and fill it with his presence. Everything did turn around for the best seven years ago. And even if it didn't, I would still be satisfied with my accomplishment...
So that is my story... I wish I could give better advice than suffering in order to strengthen belief in Torah... But that is my experience..