Hi Ruby,
Hope you are well! Long time no speak. I can't figure out how someone who looks at themselves with a beard in the mirror, all day long,could conceive of themselves as even wanting to look female. Just for argument's sake, I'll take myself for an example. While I have never felt this urge, I am clean shaven, been told I look younger than I am, when I was younger, peple could see right off I was my mother's son, I'm thin, but sort of athletic. Now, If I dressed up like this, one could say, well he's thin, he has a pretty boy face, blah blah blah. Some person could make an argument in their head that, well, he's this or that or whatever--even though it would be incorrect.
You look at this guy and he looks like a total GUY, he has a beard which I think is an inescapable way of communicating to the world immediately your MALENESS, so why would he alternatively want to be in a dress and makeup? I dont think racking it as just being "sick" is descriptive about what is actually going on this person's brain. I've had the nerve maybe once when I was younger to ask someone what this was about and theyused the word "queer," but that's just as limiting I think as the word "sick." If one is trying to understand these kinds of odd behaviors, I think one needs to be curious. I have to admit for myself it is very JARRING mentally and perhaps that is why i am curious