Not this coming monday, but the next, depending on the path of this hurricane, I'm shipping my family out. I've decided to stay on the coast, and I do have a good place to stay during the storm. I will record alot of video of the storm ( if it hits here ). I can not take the misery of packing all of my belongings again, and driving hours and hours somewhere else, like we did the last time. I'm tired of this.
Here in MS, this was the year of "Brick and morter" we were rebuilding, I honestly don't have the resolve to go through the hell again , of packing up what we can in our cars and leave our "Home". We are wards of the state, still my defiance is strong.
I no longer believe that G-d is testing me or my family. I believe it is just nature. That being said, we have lost everything, and here we go again.
The rate of suicides, is higher in fema trailor parks, I can understand this. I have not lost the will too live, I DEFY EVERY THING THAT IS AGAINST ME.
And I defy this damn storm. But I'm tired, so damn tired of this. Almost finding a place too live, getting that ripped away. I cherish the life of my Wife and Son, and Grandchild. I'm done though. I'm done with running away. When hell hits, I will stand in front of it with defiance, and face it. I don't have a home , I have a fema trailor, but where I live is my home, it has been for 38 years.
I don't give a damn any more. I refuse to bend. When it is my time too die, then I die.
I don't want too, but I am no longer worried about it. We have been through enough already, bring anything on.
Jeff